Aslam

Praise be to Allah.Your

state is like that described by the poet:

“If

death were for sale I would buy it.

This

life is something in which there is nothing good.”

This

is wrong. It is not permissible for the believer to wish for death.

If he has to say something, then let him recite the du’aa’ that has

been reported for such cases.

The Prophet

(peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Let not any one of

you wish for death because of  some harm that has befallen him.

If he must wish for something then let him say, ‘O Allaah, keep me alive

so long as life is good for me, and let me die when death is good for

me.’” (Narrated by al-Bukhaari (al-Fath), 11/154)